Journal Post, Random

Whatchu Mean You Left?

Almost eight months ago, I left my job. Yes, you read it right. I left my 9-5 job. I’m not going to sugarcoat nothing in this blog. Super transparent blog. So yeah left my job in March of this year. I asked God, “Are you sure? Did I hear you right?” You know how you act deaf with an instruction the Father gives you, especially when it takes you out of your comfort zone! That was me. The place that I became so comfortable with, yet uncomfortable– God was saying your time is up. I’d been with the company for almost four years. But God said, there’s more that I want to show you and do in you. So March 23, 2018, was my last day. It was super emotional. People kept asking me, “So what are you gonna now? Do you have another job lined up? What are you going to do about insurance?” My answer was simple. “I don’t know, but I trust God.” This was the biggest faith move of my life! Also the scariest time of my life.

I had grown accustomed to every two weeks getting a paycheck. Waking up at 5:30 am every morning to prepare for work. But my world began to turn as soon as I realized that I no longer could depend on my job for finances but I now had to turn the creator of ALL THINGS and lean TOTALLY on him. Has it been easy? N O P E ‼️ Were there days when I wanted to go back? YUPP! But I always have to remember that God is my source not man.

The first few months went by smooth. I started counseling again, I started writing again and volunteering at my church more. I was like this is the life. I felt so free! Then after a while, reality hit me. Girl, your 401K is out, your bills for the next month are vastly approaching. Here comes July and I’m broke. I started to panic. Started questioning whether I heard the Father right. I said, “God it was supposed to be smooth sailing from here but it’s not!” I got weary and frustrated. I remember saying “Lord don’t have me out here looking crazy in these streets. I done told these people that you gonna take care of me. Don’t make me eat my words!”
Well he shut my mouth in August. I was coming up on my thirty days for my car payment. Mind you I’VE NEVER BEEN LATE PAYING MY BILLS AT ALL! This was definitely an issue for me! I was like God come on now, what’s happening? Well day 29, I received a cash app for the exact dollar amount of my car payment! OUT OF NOWHERE! Those of you that know me, you know I wept right!?? The following month found myself in the same situation and once again BOOM 💥, God did it again! He’s been keeping me all along. On days when I doubted him, he never left me. He showed me that he is my PROVIDER and only he can make PROVISION like that.

I still have some people who say “whatchu mean you left?” My response is,” yea I did! And if I never left I wouldn’t have published my first book, start a blog, meet the people I’ve met nor be in the position I’m in now.” The moral of this testimony is to encourage those to follow the voice of the Father and to trust him with everything! LITERALLY! I’m living proof that he’s a promise keeper! I may not have the money I desire, or the ability to shop like I want to but I have something neither one can provide. It’s called PEACE! Getchu some! Be encouraged guys! It’s worth it! The enemy has given me his best shot! It only knocked me to my knees and forced me to trust him more. It’s not easy but it’s worth it!

💜💜

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