If he knew, I wonder would it change anything….
I told him and something did change
Our relationship
Things never went back to the way it was
You’re probably thinking “isn’t that a good thing?”
Not in this scenario
I should’ve just kept my mouth closed like I normally would
But I was encouraged to
Say something
If you don’t he’ll never know.
Well he knows
And now I wish he didn’t.
I think my biggest fear was feeling rejected again because that feeling was all too familiar
Yet this time around it didn’t hurt that bad
I guess this go around the lesson in saying something: you’re not as afraid of rejection as you were before. You did something that you haven’t done in years and that’s be honest about how you’re feeling towards a guy you’re interested in.
This time around the bounce back was quick.
I didn’t beat myself up about it this go round, instead I applauded myself because I spoke up.
Lesson: Rejection doesn’t carry that much weight in my life any more like I thought it did.
I don’t have to fear the outcome when I’m being vulnerable…feel fear but do it anyway.
